when you wonder who is the one person who is always there for me no matter what happens……………… it is Brian he would do anything for me even though i have the most screwed up life anyone could have. i hope that he will always be there for me like he has been all this time. He does not care what anyone thinks about me……. he loves me for who i am. he calls me beautiful all the time and tells me that i am gorgous. It dont matter what his past his i love him for who he is his past is his past and i love him. i ignore everybody but him. I know it hurts my friends that we never get to hang anymore because i am always with him but i know that they understand in some way. He deffinitly knows my weakness’s and he knows where i am ticklish at and it sucks, he tickles me all the time. He brings out the good in me i am always in a good mood, expecially when i am around him. My advice to other people is dont mess with me, he is very protective of me and will not be too happy if you mess with me. I know that we all live in a small town and rumors get started alot. but he cared about me even when there were certain rumors going around about me. and i wont say what those are, and there are a few people who knows. and let me say this i will never accuse him of anything he will never be sent to prison because of me. If people want to think that then fine i dont care, i love him too much now as it is. even though we are a new relationship i have a feeling that this is going to last for a long time. anyways i hope so, i know one thing is he is there for me. he cares about what i am thinking and occasionally he asks me what is wrong to ask if something is wrong. I know that he really truly cares about me. today i had an incident and i was telling my cousin Katie about it, i did not want anyone else to know. I told Katie that i did not want him to know because he would snap, and Katie said that he truly cared about me and wanted to know everything. She said you have someone who truly cares about you and you dont want to tell him because he might snap off on some one else. She told me that she knows that he is goood to me and the one for me because alls i do is smile when i come to school the next day. i am exausted but smiling. i hope that when i do tell him tonight he is calm and does not freak out. I hope that he has the same feelings like i do and just not say anything to anyone about it. i love him very much and dont ever want to loose him. He is gorgous and is very sweet. He knows how to make me just melt into his arms. If i ever were to get seriously injured he would be by my side day and night and thats where i want him to be now. I want my own place with him right there but i am still in highschool. It will be ok because a few months after i get out of highschool i am going to get my own place. He will prolly be there alot, anyways i hope so. i know that alot of people take a long time to say i love you or admit that you can truly care about them, but not us i have had the experience all at the same time of him saying it first. i have been used to alot of jerks coming around. and i know that not all guys are jerks but there was alot of them that i was with and finally when Brian came along. He was so nice to me, i love him with all my heart and i want him to know this I love you Brian forever and always
